Mittwoch, 15. Februar 2012

Fishing and Freedom


One of the Points that came up today was that i have connected fishing to freedom. This romantic idea of the fisher in the wilderness standing in a river or paddling in a boat on a lake with the sun setting in marvellous colours from transparent lavender over oranges and a shining dark read on the horizon - and some day flies dancing in the air, obviously. Obviously this is the brainwashed version. 



The connection/definition of fishing as freedom however is common. In my youth we/I would go poach fish either in small becks and rivers or in breeding ponds for trouts where it was relatively easy to get a fish on the hook but at the same time an immense risk to not get caught by the owner. One time the owner of such a pond nearly caught us and for I was in intense fear of that he will tell it my parents. However, the point of doing something forbidden, breaking the rules was where I would experience a sense of Freedom and when I look at it then it was the freedom of “doing what I want, against what my parents told me” – the freedom from the socially accepted rules and norms represented and incarnated as the family-construct … obviously I was not aware of such a motivation back then for me it was exciting/thrilling. In this also some pretty unnecessary abuse was accepted and allowed because we could not take the fish home with us to eat them and then simply let them leave to rot or whatever.

 At one Point my cousin and me where also around, while the family was gathering, to get one specific fish within a small pond in a small beck that we gave also a specific name but for some reason – it was in the heart of the town and lots of people where around- we could not get the fish so went to a nearby breeding-pond and in a few minutes had caught the first fish and after a while the second. The first we killed and put into a plastic-bag to hide it and so we did with the second, but then we got the fear of bringing the fish home. It was like we first thought we could take them with us or…no, actually we where not thinking that much beforehand…not considering the consequences of actually catching a fish …we just wanted to fucking catch a fish because we were bored and disappointed because we could not get the “black mol”-fish in the small beck. –That’s like fucked up, because I remember that we talked about that it is unfair and fucked, we where angry that we can not simply fish in public in the beck...which would represent the society/rules/system, and so we simply “broke” the rules- But what is more fucked up, and was a Mystery for me till now, is what we did with the two fishes that we caught in the breeding pond: We nailed them on a tree and smashed them with branches, while doing so I would experience a strange kind of disgust but as well excitement and power and hysteric laughter because in essence I knew that we are doing something very fucked up. Or I saw it as something very fucked up, because I see also that I said a few times that we should take them with us. So basically we exerted out our anger and frustration on the society and system out on the fish and most defiantly the anger/frustrations had also nothing to do with the society or system rules on this particular day but was an outflow of accumulated Shit over time and this opens up a new perspective for me in seeing me and how I have defined anger and its exertion as freedom.

Another example would be the family-father-man that goes to fish on the weekends or after work to relax and recreate with sitting on the water with a angel. This angler also searches “his freedom” in the nature for a few hours or a day and when I look at it’s the freedom from the same structures and constructs as the family-construct and the work. Or the picture I described in the beginning with the wilderness – and this and similar pictures and imaginations are impulsed and created by and through specific fishing-magazines or fishing-films etc. -  where often a part of this fishing/fishing-holidays is this freedom from civilisation fishing somewhere in virgin waters –lol- meaning in waters where no other fisher has held his angel in yet – lol – to enjoy the freedom to get away form the stressing wife and the kids and the work one does not like but must do to feed them. I mean the very need and desire to feel free or to recreate shows that a being feels enslaved and stressed – in fear for survival – in its day-to-day participation in this I find the point that our current accepted and allowed relationship-constructs and systems are directly responsible for “sport-fishing”. May it be like in this first two examples the family-construct and situation of the being where a polarity-point of apparent freedom trough “getting away from it for awhile” shall be achieved or the work and economic-system which I assume is the video from my last blog a good example.

When I look at the desire to catch a big shark, to fight and dominate such a big animal to win than I see the desire for power and control – man shall go and dominate to earth…good ol GOD and as we all know MONEY is GOD – They want to fuck and dominate nature, because in everyday-life they are getting fucked and dominated by the System … directly fucked by GOD. And than this/such beings believe and think that it is their Freedom to do so, or even better their free Choice – because they have the fucking money to force their will and ego onto nature and these animals. This is a big ego-boost as an experience of perceived power and control for the mind to fight such a big physical being like a shark and when the fish is caught of pride as well - this is the way the system rewards fucked up abuse. The System within as the ego and the system without as the money system as it needs beings in such positions to kept the abuse going. From this perspective the sport-fishing is a balancing-out point where the slaves can experience a sense Freedom that is experienced as free Choice  when it is either a escape from reality as relax/recreate or a active acting out of Ego.  

Dienstag, 14. Februar 2012

“Sport-Fishing”



Today I was reading an article and a discussion on a case of an angler by “accident” hooked and caught a big hammer-head shark which is a classified as an endangered species and thus protected by the law. Now the point of discussion in and of this article was the “best practise” to handle and release such an animal. This was/is quite interesting for me to read and look at from two perspectives: Seeing the points that come up within me of how I have participated and seeing what is here, how do the two parties communicate and reason.

They discuss points like should a shark be walked after the fight and the muscles “massaged to help get rid of the lactate that has accumulated in the fighting, or if to cut the line in the water when one sees that the shark/fish is a endangered species. Because the point of discussions was that the angler landed the fish – which is not allowed according to the law – which could be used and was intended to be used by the author as point to activate a discussion about the “best practise” the how treat and handle fish in a catch-and-release-scenario and how to educate the angler.   

So this whole point/discussion has caused quite some reactions within me: A reality-check as in seeing how this points/system is actually working at the moment and how the law and Money is protecting abuse. The fist point that came up was like why do the angler want to have the fish on land and I saw that it is because you can not feel proud actually the angler would feel a loss when he would cut the line “I have lost a fish” was a common sentence when I was fishing. So lots of this is about winning and losing – which is also already implied in the word “Sport-fishing” – and thus he would want to land the fish, to take a photo to document “his win”, so from this self-interested desire is obviously no “best practice” possible.

I mean to put it out clear and frank: Sport-fishing is plain abuse and the point that I have realized about this in this discussion is that this is not at all realized – the point of discussion should be the starting-point of the angler for fishing and here I looked at and found a video of two men catching a hammer-head shark. I mean this is only one example – the fist one I clicked –lol- but it reveals and showed quite impressive the abusive nature and disregard for life that is accepted and allowed in sport-fishing or big-game-fishing:
Already the treatment of the ray that is used as bait is plain abuse, poking holes into his flesh pulling a hook with a line through and slicing it in pieces. Here a thought came up how this beings can be so dulled, but actually the are not experiencing “dullness” they experience excitement- and within writing the memories come up of me hooking the worms to go fishing poking holes in their body’s and sometimes also using small fish as baits and that I initially did not enjoy this, but it was taught to me like “don’t be such baby who wants to fish must also poke of the baits” – so this is interesting because this is a point that came up in the reading the discussion on the article as well: Tradition

 



 Quote:
“   It’s a huge risk having a family and caring about a fish this way. I watched my father and grandfather do this and I’ve been practicing the same methods that they have showed me, and it has worked for the last hundred years. I know the fisherman that caught this shark did everything they possibly could do, including risking his life to ensure this shark swam off strong”

This is defiantly a point within this: being/becoming a man, a man knows to fish, a man can care and provide for the family, a man knows to kill.



                                                                                                                                                                                     Family-Tradition

                                                                            




I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to kill animals without to show and prove that I am a man and strong
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that a man must know how to fish, has to care and provide for the family and knows how to kill
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself as a man to realize that sport-fishing has nothing to do with providing for the family – it just gives me a experience of being a man as defined of and in this world feeling in power and control exerting my ego out on nature as the fish
I forgive myself as a man that I have accepted and allowed myself to project and exert out my superiority-complex on nature, the animals and the plants in harming, killing, abusing and destroying them to entertain myself and make me feel strong and powerful

Working with the same methods as our forbears is exactly how we keep repeating the past and allowing the system of abuse to continue. The interesting point within this is to see how this person – as nearly everybody is convinced in that he his doing the “right thing” and then projects it on the fisher in the article to …basically to validate “the same methods that they have showed me, and it has worked for the last hundred years”  

And that is also “the hard point” that will need lots of walking and re-eduction to have firstly oneself and then others as well realize and life that: No – we can not go on like this, we are definitely abusing what is here and this has to stop.

Currently how-ever-wants-to can for example go catch and release a shark just to have “fun” and is protected by the law (when he has a fishing-license) completely not considering the suffering, pain of the fish, where humans tend to believe that just because a being does not scream and shout it does not experience pain –which is a extremely fucked up misconception!!- and as well the situation the whole world is in and the role that the shark for example plays within the Ecosystem. That the number of sharks is constantly sinking – due to fishing; industrial and sport – which means that the positions of the “top-predator” of the ecosystem drop out and thus the balance of the ecosystem is disturbed which we are already aware of.



This long accepted and allowed believe structures that have become and are protected by the law can not simply be changed from “in one instance” to what is “best for all” based on the principle of equality of all life – the realisation can not be forced or dictated - but from my perspective a beginning would be that someone who wants to have a fishers-license must be educated on fish – in detail! the importance and position of them within the ecosystem the ecosystem as a whole the situation on earth, in the ecosystems without – and even more important would be the investigation of the Starting-point of a angler done in Self-honesty where the being that wants to catch fish has to self-investigate themselves to find out how it is that he/she wants to catch fish…when he/she after this still wants to fish.

Because within this I read the most obvious lies – and fuck I used them myself as I was a fisher, self-believes and it´s interesting because it brings up the another point of analogy because I/them would say: I love the fish! I like the fish – they are so beautiful creatures!
I can very well remember the excited/exciting feeling when I would indulge in “fishing-magazines” glancing at the pictures imagining how it would feel/be like to catch “this big fish” or on the water in the “hunting for fish”. A nice beautiful fish!

This feeling is nothing more that Greed! 




The point of analogy is how we fish for the desired partner or a costumer, we fish for complements, preparing baits – ourselves as baits to hook the other and reel him/or her in to either make a quick trophy out of in the form of a FUCKed up memory or kill him/or her (equally to ourselves) for/in a relationship to feed of nicely for a while.
 I can remember where created this view/perception in a holiday with a newly found friend about 13 years old sitting on a bench beneath Pines and judging and categorizing the girls as/like fish: X is a big fish; you need very glittery and attractive bait as well as a strong line. Y nja, not so heavy guess the best bait would be ...! Z is easy to catch but the drill will be very hard.
And so on … One girl we named hermit crab and she was like a bit shy or at least I saw her so, nevertheless I liked her somehow and in the end on the last day my cousin spoke to/with her – which made me jealous…the good-old self-judgement. In fact or as far is know jealousy/feeling and fear of being rejected was the starting point for my accepted and allowed abuse and cruelty towards animals/plants and in this also a starting point for self-abuse as Sadism/Masochism.   

The next point that came up for me with the video and also was the point of status as they discuss which reel is the best, or better what I could also see in my past where I have defined me according to the equipment of/for fishing and a special expensive reel. And that is also the last point for today on this MONEY – The typical man-stereotypes money and status = I can fucking buy me a fucking Marlin to catch and fucking put his fucking head as a fucking trophy on my fucking wall and I give a fuck about the animal, the ocean and essentially myself because I am brutal, violent and want to feel powerful and in control and money gives me the protection that to abuse:

 



Quote from the disscussion

“Like it or not, recreational anglers drive a multi billion dollar sport economy in the United States. $722 million was spent by recreational anglers in the state of Florida alone in 2009”


 And within this I am getting more and more aware that this is really “serious” from a perspective – how fucked we really are, how tight and protected the current system really is with a army of Egos – which means that it starts with Self!!


Bounty on this Blue Marlin: $451,350
 ILL getting paid to KILL